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insight sixteen
oh gosh how i love him, the way he laughs and then smiles at me, the way his hair flops and brushes through my fingers, the colours of his eyes when they look into mine, the funny nature he has and the caring character he hides from everyone else. his protectiveness over family and how much he cares, its the sweetest thing that i know. the time i spend with him is my favourite time of any week, the time we can spend alone together, just sitting, watching the sun set, talking about anything and everything.

oh gosh how i miss him, how i miss his touch, how i miss his hugs, the warmth of his cheeks against my shoulder. i miss his presence, that instantly boosts me up from my normal pit of despair. i miss his everything, and i miss his kiss.

oh gosh how amazing he is. a person who is so simple yet complex that sometimes i laugh at how much his personality differentiates. the funny, joking character he plays at school is nothing compared to the person he is around me. we laugh until i cry, i smile more than ever before. i trust him with a lot, almost everything i could say. he's helping me in ways her will never comprehend, just by being with him makes me better, makes me happy, makes me feel loved and wanted on this earth. how wonderful can one being be, how much goodness can be given to me to make me forget so many things.

oh gosh how strong he is. how mentally strong he is. so set on what he wants and what his morals are that he is one of the strongest people i know. he makes me feel strong, against everything i have overcome, and makes me want to be stronger. just a person being there like he is, makes me want to wrap him up and never let go. because he is mine and no one is getting near him.

but it's complicated...

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