Who I am.

insight ninetyone We’re well into 2020. I have done a lot of reflecting over the last decade and a lot of looking at what is happening this year. Here are the things I’m taking away from this two week thought splurge: The decade of the 2010s I can’t fathom the amount of things that happened in the past 10 years. It’s been a whirlwind year of things that made and things that broke me as a person. So many achievements and amazing memories were made, and i look back and feel thankful for those times, those people. However some moments weren’t as hopeful, hurting me more as i delve deeper into those times. I’m beginning to accept them now; I’m starting to regard them not just as something that made but also something i cant get rid of, only deal with slowly. I am a partial believer in ‘everything happens for a reason’ and i use it to explain the friends, experiences and hardships that have been and gone; it helps me move on to a new time and a new head space. So i say to 2010 and al...

insight twentyseven "you seem quiet today" why do you take such concern when i show a glimpse of what i feel like? "have you fallen out with someone?" just because i have paragraphs of writing upon my phone screen does not mean an argument, im getting help from a friend, about things a should talk to a professional about. "have you had lunch?" you know im going to say yes, even when my stomach is churning air. "what's up?" everything. 👽

insight fourteen Existence noun - the fact or state of living or having objective reality why do I exist? why do I keep in existing? what the point? i can't sleep. i don't want to eat. my head bangs like sea into a wall. my body aches constantly. my shoulders heavy from exhausted lies. w hy do I try to continue? done adje ctive - no longer happening or existing ⛔