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insight ninety

findIng someone so perfect could take years. one individual has their lost soul, their other half to a full heart, in the world somewhere but when would they meet? to claim someone as your own and utterly adore them for every flaw, every mistake, every crack in their being - it is almost like a unreasonable love story.

But if this is what love feels like, i don't ever want to be without it.

i think i have found the one mortal i can call mine, the other piece to the puzzLe. he has these beautiful eyes that melt into my heart, as if a glance could calm me better than any words could ever. a smile, that smile, when he laughs or looks at me in loving dismay - an infectious happiness that can pull me out of the darkest lows. his skin, when i lie on his chest and feel his heart beating aside mine, tracing my fingers down his skin, freckles and all. arms around me like a wall, guard or shield, protecting me from anyone or anything that has Or could hurt me; the most important feeling i can experience is how i am with him - safe. he walks to the bed where i lay under the soft sheets, allowing brief moments of appreciation for his form, the only man i wish to see that underdressed. not only do i adore him physically, but the words he says and the care he gives is unmatched. the persistent support is like having a safety net without knowing you need it until you fall... and it envelops you with a glistening soul and lets you feel the deVoted attention you are being given.

to you, i can only evEr thank you for being mY half in this world; i will never lOve you any less and i will always love yoU more. :))

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