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insight sixty 
i get these flashes in my mind, daily i might add. like lightening they pop up, and disappear before i can completely process the happen, but long enough for me to understand it. they are never happy smile and laughter, always the negative memories i am trying to shove to the back of my head.
flash
a time of romance, happiness flourishing but then his hand is on my thigh and my body freezes in fear, shock, and maybe even guilt.
flash
curled up in the crispy green sheets, creases smoothed with tears of utter sorrow, screaming into the covers that may actually understand what i mean.
flash
the call ends in slow motion, surroundings blurring to the floor. a single tear falls for the fallen friend.
flash
stomach tight, teacher screaming loud, breathing shallow and tense. not now, not now.
flash
shouting rings around the hallway, a single bruise and a million words. what did i do so wrong?
flash
nobody knows. nobody knows.

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