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insight fifty
2nd holiday... same old camera... daily writing... whilst in Gisburn, West Yorkshire...

28th August 2017
the art of a new day dawns
pink wakening sun
blue surprises spread within cloud
grey headphones blast calm
red top hanging down
black thoughts settling in




(well that was shit... shitty day)
29th August 2017
tomorrow i recognise every detail
details one wants never
showing all details
details everyone always disguises



(ooh secret message... ooh bad day)
30th August 2017
crisp white sheets twisted round
tired eyes squinting
in the peeking sun from curtains closed

flat white duvet welcomes
and fluffy socks warm
whilst howls hoot in trees

(sleepy day...)
31th August 2017
separated by emotion
or by mental happiness
it could be stability
divide by a smile
or a pair of tired eyes
unfair rules without trust
unfair happiness throughout the mind


(more arguments... fuck sake)

1st September 2017
i don't think I've ever had an outer body experience
but sometimes
sometimes i don't feel like im inside my body
like im a shadow
a red or blue shadow
like 3D glasses with a 2D screen
a dizzy, sick feeling
a rocking mind within a constant headache
its not a mirror reflection 
and aching feeling of not belonging
inside your own body
inside you
but i don't think I've ever had an outer body experience
only an inner body identity crisis


(phahha, i had like 3 photos)

here's what i brought...


(i brought like a ton of rock and fudge also)

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